GOD has given man plenty of wealth and resources to fulfill the destiny that man was created for. among of the plenty resources GOD has given to man is companionship and friends, which is basically a complete set of behaviors and personas that mankind should deal with, and for this reason all prophets had their own friends to support them and help them when everybody else left them alone!
For myself my Friends are the only thing that i’ve ever had in my life and i love them just like my family, they are above all the defects that exists and they are more trust-worthy than any other person i would ever know. i deeply love them from the bottom of my heart, we’ve been friends for so long that i stopped counting but it’s been over 10 years now. we’ve shared the best of moments and their worst, we’ve seen the ups and the downs, the joys and pain, some of them went and others came, but my friends kept the same through the whole period.
Reasons that you call them your friends is because, no matter what you say or do, they will just be there for you, either to support you when you are right or advice you when you are wrong and make you get back to your senses.
I have to admit that for my friends i go way beyond across lines and zones and keep pushing for the best, and that has been our eternal conflict, that i have no right being involved into their lives to that degree and they arent helpless to support and think their own minds. but for me it was and still is a matter of care and fear on them from being so harmed by people that doesnt worth being with them. yess im scrooge about who gets involved with them, just because i care for them, but as i said this has been my eternal problem with my friends, and this is when we started to drift apart.
I’d never forget how many times i’d call or how many times i’d ask, but no matter what i do, it’s not doing any thing and they have to try themselves, no matter i try hard the harder it gets and how strong i try to pull it’s how powerful they drift apart. it’s just bad to see people you care for getting hurt and you cant do anything but be there for them. Yet you cant influence what you want on people no matter how or why you do it. you just cant. and you must leave them experience life, this is how we all learn.
We kept drifting apart and maybe life is increasing the gap with it’s commitments and it’s troubles to make us more differently than what we used to be.
At this point i just felt that my best friends are not the people i knew for my whole life, and the reason is myself and no one else but myself. i’ve realized the fact couple of months back and i tried to talk to few of them about it, and this is what i admitted doing of getting too much involved into their lives with no respect to whatsoever they desire or wish for.
What saddens me more is that, yesterday i was having so much fun and then i just realized too many things that i was missing in my picture, and i wanted just any of my friends to talk to and i couldnt find anyone to! just no one to talk to and tell them what’s going wrong with me, some1 who could just listen to what you need to say and tell, someone who would understand you, and you find none. it just makes your life a living hell, and no matter what the number of contacts you have on your phone, social media networks are, there’re just no one you can talk to and speak your mind to! and this just gets us to the point that “Keep your friends as you friends or you’ll end up LONELY” and trust a person who’s just experienced the feeling. its something you dnt ever wanna experience it’s bloody sad, weakens your soul, spirit and motive, kills your imagination and inspiration.
Loneliness might be a usual thing for certain types of people but not to me. i’ve been alone for so long till i knew the taste of being with friends and family and i cherished it ever since. so getting back there is just something that means you’ve failed in doing what you were supposed to do.
One falls just to Stand up again and re-start all over again. but this time ….. i need help from my what i call friends, im not sure if they do call me so also or not! it’s just pretty confusing.
no matter what happens they will remain my friends, and will live life as i am theirs too! otherwise it would be just useless living this life without companionship that GOD has created! and no matter how strong you are you just cant live alone and away from people, it’s just against nature, and nature wont allow you be part of it if you do! and here is just an excellent example set to be a role-model to all others around.
What is more sad is that i’ve lost a friend and DAMN we were too good to be true, we just knew what each other wanted and when, we could talk for so long and yet we are still listening and enjoying the conversation, no matter why it happened, the fact is “WE ARE NEVER GOING TO BE LIKE BEFORE” and this just kills me a little too much more inside knowing the fact, there will always be something wrong, something weird about, and this was the reason i was too hesitant in the first place, and now it came back to haunt me down for everything i have! it just kills something inside more and more by the time! i dunno what could be a route to salvation from such a mess, but i’d do anything for this happen and do even more just to be as we used to be! but the fact is pretty know is obvious and this will never happen, tried so hard but its not working. and for this Im deeply sorry
i dunno this is pathetic or foolish, but this what all i am now.
For all the things i’ve ever made, please forgive me my old friends!
You know what, i know that my friends dont even read my blog, and know nothing about it, and even if i shared this with them as an article i’ve read somewhere, they wouldnt know i wrote it nor would they know whom im talking about! do u see?! do you see how sad it is? you see how bad the situation is? no matter how you are close to me, im sure you wouldnt be 90% right about anything im writting in here, even though it’s plain, clear, simple and out loud… .and this is the ultimate problem or the Mother of all problems.
Now you’ve read so much negative energy, please go drop them off somewhere, the people i wrote it for arent reading it anyways




